stand still.look pretty.

i really am falling in love with this song..let's sing along!



STAND STILL.LOOK PRETTY

I want to paint my face
and pretend that I am someone else
Sometimes I get so fed up
I don't even wanna look at myself

But people have problems that are worse than mine
I don't want you to think I'm complaining all the time
And I hate the way you look at me I have to say
I wish I could start over

(Chorus;)
I am slowly falling apart
I wish you'd take a walk in my shoes for a start
And you might think its easy being me
You just stand still, look pretty

Sometimes I find myself shaking
in the middle of the night
And then it hits me and I can't
even believe this is my life

But people have problems that are worse than mine
I don't want you to think I'm complaining all the time
And I wish that everyone would go an shut their mouth
I'm not strong enough to deal with it

(Chorus 2x)

cuba steet carnival (part 2)

me with friends at cuba carnival..


this is taping tales...they make images on the wall using just tapes!how cool...=p


it's nice to sit here..


at cuba carnival we get the chance to see crazy people doing crazy things..and this guy is one of them..he is so funny and dramatic...


ain,me and kak mimi....

cuba steet carnival (part 1)

It's a beautiful day and i'm going to the Cuba Street Carnival which celebrated every 21st of February and today is the 10th anniversary...


i love to see capoiera...


me with the red indian..


i see dead people on the street...


this guy is funny..he talks to everyone he sees on the street and he acts crazily...

first cut is the deepest...

hye!!
there's a lot i need to update in this blog...but,first let me tell something that happened to me today...
I FELL OFF!!!!
woohooo~~~
this is how the story goes....

i'm having a seminar program starts at 9..i woke up at 8 and it was raining outside...i dont wanna go, but thinking that it's a sort of study and learning seminar,i finally changed my mind..my housemates and i,we got out from our apartment at about 845am and it was still raining..i brought my umbrella along..as it was raining we decided to take the cable car from Lambton Quay to Salamanca station..we walked into the Lambton Square shortcut and heading downstairs by the escalator..that was where the accident happened..it was very slippery..i was rushing down the escalator and oOOPs!!!!the next thing i knew was i already lying on the staircases...with my back and my left arm aching..ouch!omg..that's hurt..i heard a kiwi speaking...haha...i was blur for a while and i sat there looking at my friends..i felt my arm hurt and when i uncover my arm,i found that it was bleeding...and that's when i started to cry....i cried along the way from Lambton Square to the Cable Car station...i wanna go home...i swear i never have this kind of cut in my life....eventhough i know it's not that bad but this is the worst cut in my life that i ever had...seriously...

when we arrived at the seminar room, there was no one there except for some people who're always early...and we found out that it's actually will be starting at 930am...shit!
if only i knew,i will not run down the escalator and had myself injured!seriously shit!

what a day...

it's wednesday...and it's been 3 days since i came here..the actual orientation starts today,at 9am,i suppose...so, my housemates and i got out early in the morning..we walked up the hilly willy road heading to Kelburn Campus...it was about 15 minutes walk...we were so exhausted that we forgot to take a picture of us walking to the university by ourselves for the very first time...as we arrived,there were lots of international students and they were waiting to go inside the hall...there are some from korea, saudi arabia, denmark, germany, samoa and some others country...

we were given some briefing on VUW and we get the chance to know other international students...that's great!i finally managed to make some new friends...this orientation with the international students was actually not a compulsary for us, the B.Ed Tesol students but we didn't know..even there were some of us who didn't come..we have our own orientation because we come in a group...we will have a Maori welcoming ritual called Powhiri(pronounce as pofiri)...i cant wait...hixx..

after that, our group were supposed to go for a bus tour around wellington..i was so excited...da terbayang-bayang nak amik gamba best2 tepi gunung da....skali tunggu2 bus xde....there were about 10 of us time 2...tu la...jalan lenggang itik lagi....william, our tourist guide was sooo nice and he took us for a campus tour...ape kelas?nak bus tour.jalan keliling wellington...haish!nevermind...we walk around and found out that Kelburn Campus is one beautiful fabolous gorgeous fantastic place...haha...kat sini pon boley amik pics best2...tapi tak amik pon....we were like, soooooooooo tired and everyone's mumbling to go home...but it was quite fun, even it was only around the campus....

me and ain then went home by cable car...$1 for student....ok la...penat.x larat jalan...we were thinking to go eat but decided to go back first...hantar barang2 yang sarat ni...then,pegi makan balik kat Cinta Malaysia restaurant for the third time since we came....itu je yang rase cam best....nant2 la explore tempat makan lain.pnat...sempat lagi terserempak with an old friend..borak kejap tepi jalan...

then,we went home...bengang betul....washing mashine tidak berfungsi dengan baik....marah.da la penat kene basuh baju dangan tangan pulak...padahal ade washing mashine da...haish...basuh je la....then xde tempat nak keringkan pulak....tengah mengusahakan....

saya di new zealand

saya di new zealand..tengah hirup hot chocolate...baru beli tadi kat star mart kat bawah tu...sedapnya minum air panas...sejukkk....nasib baik dia 24 hours open..tu je la tempat terdekat nak beli tit bits untuk survive....hixxx.....

baru 3 hari saya sampai..departin from klia at 930 on valentine's day and arrived in wellington the next day at about 6 pm in new zealand...sedeih tinggal rumah,family and kawan-kawan...
kat airport nangis, atas flight duk bawah selimut kawan2 kiri kanan tido, saya nangis...sedih....
bila da jejak kaki hilang pulak sedih....cantik sangat new zealand...

x sempat lagi saya nak ltak pics di blog ni...x byk sgt amik gambar lagii...busy with some stuff...busy beli barang2 keperluan..busy nak pilih course...busy jakun tengok tempat orang...
nant saya upload pics, next time...

penat jalan kat sini...jauh jugak nak pegi kampus (padahal x pernah jalan kaki)...tu pasal rasa jauh sangat..lagipon jalan sumenye heely weelly..cramped kaki sampai atas...pakai baju 2-3 lapis pon peluh nak g clas...clas x start lagi...tapi kami pergi jumpe jonathan, our course administrator here...nant saya upload pic die jugak...

tutors and lecturer di sini ramah2 semuanya....senyum dan sangat casual....sangat cosy...campus kita org yang "jauh nak mati" tu namanya kelburn campus..sangat cantikk...nant saya upload picnye...=p

senior2 pon baik....jemput kami di airport....hantar pegi beli barang....sanggup menunggu berjam2 kat luar warehouse and kitorg plak shoping tak ingat dunia xmaw keluar...and most thank you tu abg yusman yang datang amik and hantar kitorg kat sini sebab rumah kami agak jauh berbanding dengan rumah2 lain...lagipon beliau ada kereta...terima kasih...nant kami pulang balik selimut2 and bantal2 yang kitorg amik....sebab kitorg da ade yang baruuu....=p

kat sini sejuk,even in summer...apelah fatin,da name tempat orang putih!tapi orang sini macam kulit tebal..biarlah...jalan2 kat wellinton city ni best..semuanya walking distant...dekat la jugak...sebab xde bukit sangat kat city...tanah rata....saya dah beberapa kali nampak orang wellington jalan2 kat city tak pakai kasut...jaangan kata kasut,sliper pon tak pakai...ape nak jadi...mungkinkah kerana mereka rase negara mereka sangat bersih?memang bersih pon...tapi takkan xda kan bekas kencing2 anjing kat atas jalan?....ataupon mereka rase selesa memijak batu2 jalan yang panas?konon2 batu2 yang reflexology tu?ntah...ataupon mereka adalah orang2 mauri(kaum asli di new zealand) yang ingin mengekalkan ciri2 tamadun asal mereka??mungkin....tapi saya sangat kagum....

next time saya cerita lagi....esok orientation sya start...to everyone, my ibu, my sisters, cousin fifi,my family,friends,best friends,neleh,daa..ieda thanx anta ari2...faisal...i miss you guys soooo much!!!big love~~~~~~~~

i'm a blue panther~~

i saw my cousin,fifi did this on facebook..so,i decided to give it a try..i turns out to be real good..eventhough there are 1 or 2 which don't really match with me..

fatin
06/07/1988

You are Blue Panther, who is cheerful, lively and light hearted person.

You can keep reason and emotion at a good balance.

You are gentle and peaceful too.

You have deep and wide relationships with people, and there are some whom you would have a long relationship with.

You possess fashionable sense and are well dressed that make people turn around in the street.

You are not good at objective way of thinking.

You rely on your preferences, and the instinct of that moment.
Therefore you cannot accumulate plans.

You are also weak on making quick solutions and coming out with conclusions through careful and strict analysis.

You tend to not be able to find your life objective.

You find your objective through the situation you are in, and by the support of the people around you.

This makes your life divide into two sections, and there may be a possibility that you may lead a totally different life.

You are extremely sensitive and possess natural sense of instinct.

You think too much about people's opinion, and are always feeling unsettled.

You are a romantic sort of person in that you lead your life according to your beliefs rather than depending on talent and capability.

Even after you get married, you should keep your career that requires your good fashion sense.

You will be a good but rather obstinate wife and a mother.

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PANTHER

Characteristics & Personality

1. Panthers are uncompromising with honor and pride

2. Panthers like to be the center

3. Panthers want to talk about themselves

4. Panthers like new things

5. Panthers are smart dressers

6. Panthers like to change jobs

7. Panthers wear their feelings on their sleeve

8. Panthers are easily hurt

9. Panthers have a strong sense of justice

10. Panthers don't want to retire

A Walk To Remember

i watched a movie last night..this movie is said to be my all time favourite because i really don't know how many thousand times have i watch it..it is A Walk To Remember...casted by Mandy Moore and Shane West....

i watch it more than twice..but still it put tears in my face...

the reasons why i lovvvveeee this movie:

-i love bad boys...Landon Carter is one gorgeous bad boy...he doesn't speaks a lot...but his actions tells it all....

-the innocent look in Mandy Moore but at the same time,her face was like telling the others,"mess with me,and you're down."

-i love the determination of Jamie Sullivan...the way she coped with all that negative talking about her..and she's still cool with her "since 4th grade sweater".

-i love the way Jamie changed Landon...you know, when a boy a changed for the girl he loves...

-i love the part when Jamie tells Landon,"you have to promise me,you won't fall in love with me.."Landon confidently replies "that's not a problem.."...it's like how would you know you will..or you will not fall in love with that someone?nobody knows...

-i love to know that Jamie made a list of 100 things to do in life...

-i love it when she sings "only hope"

-i love it when he realizes that he loves her after she sang..

-i'm melted when i watch their fisrt date scene...Landon makes some of her dreams come true...

-i love it whe he tells her "i love you"

-i love it when Landon brought Jamie to their state border..the place where Jamie can be in 2 places at once...

-i love it when Landon puts on a fake tattoo on Jamie's shoulder...

-i love it when Landon didn't go anywhere when he knew that jamie has leukimia...

-i love it the most when he named a star after Jamie's name...this is sooooooooo damn precious...i will never ask for any gift if someone could do that for me...

-i love it when they spent their time together at night at the cemetery looking at the star..

-i love it when he tries to learn how to dance just so he can dance with her..

-i love it when he waited for all day long at the hospital...

-i love it when she says, "you're my angel" to Landon...

-i love it when he finally makes her first dream come true...to marry her in the church where her parents get married...

-i love it when i know that he still loves her even after she has died...

saya tak suka dentist (2)..

hari ini saya bangun dengan semangatnye untuk pergi jumpa dentist lagi..saya teringat kakak di kaunter pesan sebelum datang call dulu nak check retainer dah siap ke belum..saya mandi dan dial telefon..

tut-tut..

tiada jawapan..

saya dial lagi skali..

tut-tut..

lelaki 1: hellow..

gadis : hellow..aritu saya ada datang buat retainer baru..saya nak tahu,retainer saya dah siap ke belum..

lelaki 1: ha??

gadis : retainer..yang kat gigi tuu...orthodontik la...

lelaki 1 tadi memanggil rakan setugasnya...

lelaki 1: kau cakap dengan budak ni...macam-macam pulak die tanye..

gadis ketawa kecil.dlam hati "kerja kat klinik gigi pon xtaw orthodontik tu ape...apelah!"

lelaki 1: nak apa tadi??

gadis : retainer...saya nak tahu dah siap ke belommmmm....haish...

lelaki 1: (blur lagi)awak ni...mmm...kejap ek?

gadis : ok..(ketawa lagi)..apehal blur sangat niii...

lelaki 1: woii..ko cakap ngan budak ni...macam2 je..(berkate kepada kawannya)

lelaki 2: hellow...adik nak ape?

gadis : saya ada datang aritu...saya buat retainer baru...saya call ni nak tahu da siap ke belom..aritu die suroh saya call...

lelaki 2: retainer?

gadis : yeee....retainer...yang taruk kat gigi tuu...

lelaki 2: ha??

gadis : haish..ini klinik gigi *** ke tidak ni..?da lame saya kat telifon ni...(mula marah)

lelaki 2: adikkkk....ini pejabat ukurrrrrrrrrr........

gadis : yeee...?erkkk...

biasa la pagi-pagi...saya tak suka dentist...

saya tak suka dentist..

saya ke dentis hari ini..
seperti biasa, perut saya kecut sebelum masuk..
jantung berdegup kencang...
takut.
saya tak suka dentist..

nama saya dipanggil..
tangan saya genggam kuat2..
saya baring perlahan di kerusi dentist..
rasa macam tunggu nk kena sembelih..
saya tak suka dentist..

perkakas2 dentist mula berbunyi...
gerudi,pemutar skru,playar berdenting2 terlanggar satu sama lain..
bunyi ngilu..
saya tutup mata..
saya tak suka dentist..

dentist senyum..
beri banyak nasihat penjagaan gigi..
ingatkan saya pakai retainer setiap malam..
seumur hidup katanya..owh..
saya tak suka dentist...

pembantu dentist yang baru ni mesra..
tak macam yang dulu,monyok macam singa lapar..
awak kena buat retainer baru..kata dentist..
tapi kena bayar 200..
saya tak suka dentist..

acuan baru masuk ke mulut..
busuk,bau plastik campur getah..
saya nak muntah..
dentist kata jangan muntah..
saya tak suka dentist...

ok,da siap..kata dentist..
hari khamis datang ambil retainer baru..
nant bayar kat kaunter ye..
saye bersihkan muka yang comot..
saya tak suka dentist...

life isn't a fairytale

i grow up hearing fairytales and fables..each day and each night..my mom bought me books..watching the cds..it's normal for a kid to live in their own world,a fantasy..one which they created by their own..the fairytale that i love the most is the Beauty and The beast...the story is different from the others..i used to believe that every girls will be like Cinderella, or Snow White..having a handsome prince to come and save them and lighten up their lives..but hey!wake up!life isn't a fairytale...there's no way your lovelife will just pop up and you'll getting married. in a day.no way!

this is just something random...and i don't know why i am writing this crap..i just need something to do...

p/s: i love the beauty and the beast just as much as i like the movie, Enchanted...and you can click on the link if you want to read the beauty and the beast story...it's just a short one..

reminder

list of things i should do by now...

packing!9 more days to go~~~
see my dentist~~appoinment on tuesday,10am...
eat as much as i could...
finish my new moon~
applying for the istc...still thinking~~
stop sleeping you sleepyhead!
reducing my internet addiction~~

while i was enjoying my new moon

today, as there's nothing much i can do at home, i tried to do some mind relaxing activity..however, i couldn't find anything better than get myself reading the second sequel of twilight novel.the new moon..woa..i'm sooo lovin' it..i can picture the most handsome blood sucking creature,Edward Cullen with Bella Swan, a charming , moody , unstable and interesting girl(that's all i can think about bella).i'm not going to mention about jacob because i hate him.he is soooo not in the list of my fav...

however, as usual,we always have some obstacles in our life..heh.same with me.i do have faced some obstacles(=p) in concentrating and finishing my new moon.

today..while i was enjoying my new moon...
pak long called..i have to run to pick up the phone because nobody in this house will ever gonna pick it up,but me..he called to ask atok about nyen condition.note that nyen is my great grandmother and now she's admitted at the hospital for heart problem and she's still there...i was at page 5..

i continued my reading...

while i was enjoying my new moon...
wan(my grandmother,nyen's daughter) came back from hospital and she asked me to help her in the kitchen...okay wan...i was at page 15.please take note that i am not a fast reader...

i eagerly grabbed my new moon...

while i was enjoying my new moon...
pon!pon!(it's the motorcycle horn sound)..a postman came..nobody's gonna go out..so i went out...sigh~~"kenal aton bt ahmad tak?" nOooo!!!of course i dont know any aton bt ahmad..but he actually gave the letter to me.i hope atok knows who aton bt ahmad is..i was at page 22...

tired...

while i was enjoying my new moon...
nana called..haish!!"kak huda,kate kat atok aku balik sekolah kul 5 taw!"...ok nana....i was at page 29...

starving...

while i was enjoying my new moon...
my tummy started to ache..it's almost 2pm and i haven't eat anything yet..i went to the kitchen and have my fav,kerang!!!without having any rice i finished a big bowl of 'just' kerang..i dont eat much...i was at page 34...

sleepy...

while i was enjoying my new moon...
i felt like my eyelids are closing...i slowly walked to my bed...and zzzz....i was at page 40...

i woke up...

while i was enjoying my new moon...
i found myself sitting in front of my lappy typing this entry....lol...

lily allen says....

hye..i am always a big fan of lily allen..her songs always sounded great and catchy..and this is one of her songs which she recently claimed that it's for the great 'bush'..what a cool song..it's called F**k you very much...



Look inside
Look inside your tiny mind
Then look a bit harder
Cos we're so uninspired
So sick and tired
Of all the hatred you harbour
So you say
It's not okay to be gay
Well I think you're just evil
You're just some racist
Who can't tie my laces
You're point of view is medevil


F**k you, f**k you very very much
Cos we hate what you do
And we hate your whole crew
So please don't stay in touch
F**k you, f**k you very very much
Cos your words don't translate
And it's getting quite late
So please don't stay in touch


Do you get
Do you get a little kick out of being small minded
You want to be like your father
His approval your after
Well that's not how you'll find it
Do you
Do you really enjoy living a life that's so hateful
Cos there's a hole where your soul should be
You're losing control of it
And it's really distasteful


F**k you, f**k you very very much
Cos we hate what you do
And we hate your whole crew
So please don't stay in touch
F**k you, f**k you very very much
Cos your words don't translate
And it's getting quite late
So please don't stay in touch

my pleasure...

1.What have you've been doing recently?
...meeting bestfriends,spending money,having fun...

2.Do you ever turn your cell phone off?
...yes.sometimes...

3.What happened at 10am today?
...still sleepin'...

4.When did you last cry?
...last 2 days.while watchin bride wars...

5.Believe in fate/destiny?
...yeah...

6.What do you want in your life now?
...everyone i love near me..
...a bright future...
...a nice spouse..=p

7.Do you carry an umbrella when it rains or just put up your hood?
...i dont usually bring my umbrella.but if its raining,i do..hood?sometimes...

8.What's your favourite thing to do on the bed?
...tug in with my ted,future planning and zzzz.....

9.What bottoms are you wearing now?
...jeans.just got back from somewhere....

10.What's the nicest things in your inbox?
...i love u...

11.Do you tend to make the relationship complicated?
...nope.never...

12.Are you wearing anything borrowed from anyone?
...even myself is borrowed from God..=]

13.What was the last movie you caught?
...the bride wars of course..love it!!

14.What are you proud of?
...myself...

15.What does the oldest text msg in your inbox say?
...just emptied my inbox a few minutes ago...

16.What was the last song you sang out loud?
...complicated...

17.Do you have any nicknames?
...adela...cannot tell..

18.What does the newest text say?
...told ya...just emptied mine..

19.What time did you go to bed last night?
...not so sure.12.30 am maybe..

20.Are you currently happy?
...yep.plus excited..woohoo...

21.Who gives you the best advise?
...my mom...

22.Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
...noooo...

23.Who did you talk on the phone last night?
...love..faisal...

24.Is something bugging you now?
...yes.maybe.but what??

25.Who was the last person to make you laugh?
...cousins...

perang pengantin

still living in the world of blood and vampires...dreaming to be loved by a hot blood sucking creature...

but now i've come down to a more cute romantic and nostalgic dream...it all changed on the 29th of February when i watched the bride wars movie at the cinema...this is a must watch movie..and i'm suggesting for girls to watch it with your girlfriends who share the same dream as yours...
and now i cant wait to get married!!haha....